In Her mind: My dream relationship

So I haven’t written anything in a while, that’s not to say that I have nothing to write about. It just means that i have been extremely busy. A lot has happened during the past months. I got a job, I study and I have some projects that I am working on. I got a lot on my mind. I find myself doubting that one person I should be believing and that is simply because he doesn’t give much to believe in. How can you believe someone who carries on like they don’t care about what you think and what you feel?

Like seriously……………. If I am meant to believe you then you gotta make me believe you and believe in u. What’s the point of a relationship? because clearly I seem to have missed it or I do not know it at all. I just realised that I know nothing about relationships. Maybe I need to mature and then I will understand the purpose of any relationship. If there is a school that teaches relationship maturity then I am happy to go there and maybe when I come back I will have some knowledge on how to deal with relationship.

Let me stop moaning and complaining about what I don’t know but talk about ny wishes as far as relationships are concerned.I wish for the type of a relationship where my partner doesn’t have to tell me he loves me everyday because I already know. A relationship where we share our dreams and encourage each other in all we wish to accomplish. I want to matter in your life more than your exes, I wanna feel like I am part of your life…………damnit. I shouldn’t even have to ask you to put me first because it should be one of your priorities. I know I will change my plans for you and I will treat you with respect because that is what a relationship should be like * ***Oh well………. at least in my dreams, our relationship is that perfect******

What do I have to do to get you to realise that you mean the world to me? If it wasn’t clear before then I hope one day you will realise that yes I truly loved you……… No Bull Shit.